I hate the word "BESTFRIEND"

macam klaka biler that person used to be someone important and then sddnly they are not and evrything yg mengingtkan kita kpd dier juga adlh bnda yg kita bnci...i guess jijie is rite when she said how much she hate that word coz if someone that we close and we called them "bestfriend" it will end up we have a fight n then your world start to being diffrnt coz somehow how much u hate them still there is something tht mke u keep thnkng of them..i never thought that i would miss all the thing that i hate in her..and rite now i do lost faith when sumone tu mcm nice kat aku..im knda afraid bila ader org baik dgn aku coz aku tak ska..aku tak ska when one day i find out they are not...maybe aku tak bek, or maybe aku nie ssh nak difahami, but aku bkn irg yg jnis mntk maaf...coz aku sgt2 tggi harga diri tu..harapan nak aku mntk maaf...but biler aku dh mntk maaf tu meant aku really2 meant it and really2 wnt them to forgive me...but what hurt the most when that person reply " there are no more room to listen"...dlm erti kata lain takkan maafkan aku...people make mistake n i do admit mybe i do hurt her in the way i dont seem to notice but at least she could just say it to me...instead of keep quiet and hidup dlm dunia die jer...it's knda funny when jijie ckp " die ingt die tu malaikat ker tak nak maafkan org" coz sgt ssh nk tgk jijie bgtu sinis...

dlu aku ska sgt tgk cter cardcaptor sakura coz ska tgk the way tomoyo yg sgt2 syg sakura...really2 faham sakura..n i do wish ader kwn cmtu..i thought i found one but i dont..coz the reality is that no one is like that...n the effect of bnda nie adlh aku dh krng nak wat baik dgn org..kalo dlu if ape2 pon aku sgop jer tlg org tu wlpon aku tak rpt ke ape...but now biler org msge mntk tlng ke ape aku more to like..errmmm sory aku ader hal la..and it does hurt my soul actually bler jwb cmtu coz aku jnis ska tgk org lain hapy instead of tgk dorg sdh...so rte now aku mmg dh turn to be sum1 yg jht..huhu...